Monday, January 23, 2006

Entertaining Americans

Arrested Development is one of the most intelligent and well written shows to air for quite some time now.


The following are the accolades the show received after it's first season:

"The critically acclaimed series revolves around Michael Bluth (Jason Bateman), the good son who must run the family business and continue to pick up the pieces as he keeps his offbeat family from falling apart. The comedy has featured guest appearances by numerous stars including Julia Louis-Dreyfus, Liza Minnelli, Heather Graham and Ben Stiller. Last year, the show received five Emmy Awards for Outstanding Comedy Series, Writing, Directing, Casting and Editing. Additionally, Jason Bateman won a Golden Globe for Outstanding Actor in a Leading Role - Musical or Comedy Series and the show was nominated for two Golden Globe Awards for Outstanding Musical or Comedy Series. This past season, the cast was nominated for a SAG Award for Outstanding Performance by an Ensemble in a Comedy Series. The show was also named an AFI Program of the Year and received the Critics' Choice Award for Best Comedy, among other accolades."

From the Fox Broadcasting Website

What isn't mentioned is how since nearly the first episodes Fox has tried to cancel the show. 18-35 year olds are not included in the Nielson Ratings profiles, and therefore the entire demographic for the show has been excluded from the executives' at Fox attention. Although this isn't quite true; there have been massive grass-roots campaigns to save the show. After a second critically acclaimed season, winning nearly as many honors as the first, Arrested Development was basically cancelled. Thanks to this campaign and massive Season 1 DVD sales, it was brought back for a 3rd season.

However, without any sign or warning, the show quietly disappeared from the Monday evening lineup, shortly after having been moved from it's more successful and accessible Sunday evening slot, airing with the Simpsons and Family Guy (another acclaimed show Fox canceled but was forced to bring back after one of the single largest letter writing campaigns in the history of broadcasting). Why was the show moved from a time-slot where it was being watched, and with similar programming? What happened to the show?

Also from the Fox Broadcasting Website:

"2. What are some other Mid-Season backup shows not yet scheduled for the 2005/06 Season?

ANSWER:
BACKUP SHOWS (to air sometime in later this season - sometime in 2006):

o THE LOOP [NEW COMEDY]
o FREE RIDE [NEW COMEDY]
o NANNY 911 [2ND SEASON]
o HELL'S KITCHEN [2ND SEASON]
o SO YOU THINK YOU CAN DANCE [2ND SEASON]
o ARRESTED DEVELOPMENT [Remainder of 3RD SEASON]"

If you'll notice,

1.) Arrested Development was cancelled mid-season,

2.) It is last in a long line of quality broadcasting

Meanwhile, Arrested Development was just nominated by The Screen Actors Guild Awards again for best performance by an ensemble in a comedy series.

The point of all of this is that in this country it is not quality that counts, but rather numbers and profit. It reminds me of these absolutely fascinating burial mounds the Native Americans built throughout North America, some even shadowing the great pyramids of Egypt in size and architectural complexity. They used to be all around, but you've never seen one because they were demolished so the shells they were made of could be turned into a shock-absorbing base for our highways and interstates.

I personally would rather watch shows on television that challenge me intelectually as well as they entertain me than say, an episode of say Nanny 911- but Mr. Nielson seems to say differently. Television is generally considered a drain to the intellect-parents warn children to stay away, while using it as a mind-numbing nanny. However, when something against that grain finally airs, it is quickly swept under the rug.

Don't let executives around a conference table spit on your minds. Be vocal about the quality of the programming that you watch, the music you listen to, the health insurance you purchase for your family, or the source and quality of the clothes you buy. This must be the foundation for American business: quality should be the rule, never the unprofitable exception.

Sunday, January 22, 2006

blankets on the beach...

I don't think I've ever mentioned how much my grandmother likes the band, The Sea & Cake. I think it's very odd.

Lately I've had a lot of bad dreams. I've had a lot of bad awake too, but mostly I've been having a lot of nightmares nearly every evening- not too awful, just bad enough to wake me up.

Friday, January 20, 2006

Anatomy and Osteopathy

"The student of any philosophy suceeds best by the more simple methods of reasoning. We reason for necessary knowledge only, and should try to start out with as many known facts and as few false theores as possible.

Anatomy is taught in our school more thoroughly than in any other school, because we want the student to carry a living picture of all or any part of the body in his mind, as an artist carries the mental picture of the face, scenery, beast, or anything that he wishes to represent by his brush. I constantly urge my students to keep their minds full of pictures of the normal body."

-Andrew Taylor Still
The Philosophy and Mechanical Principles of Osteopathy
1902

Osteopathy is about sturcture and function, osteopathy is about mind body spirit, and osteopathy is about holistic treatment of the person. But the theory is incomplete without the mechanics of osteopathic manipulative medicine, and these mechanics are rooted in anatomy. Only through the careful study of the human body can the operator understand the machine. I am very concerned that in the current reconstruction of the KCOM curriculum that we are throwing out the very essence of our profession. Anatomy must not be thrown out if the school is to continue producing competent osteopaths. There must be a common ground for avant garde medical education, and the traditonal educational foundation of our special abilities.

Monday, January 16, 2006

A Conversation with Andy

On "Oregon Trail"


Andy: ah oregon trail. I'm so upset that I can't play it because the computer is too advanced.
Aaron: i'm SURE you can find it.
emulated...

Aaron: i'm going to see if i can find it for my supercomputer.
Andy: hahaha
Aaron: http://www.classicgaming.com/rotw/otrail.shtml
there you go.

Andy: holy crap. I'm not going to school.

Aaron: ha HA!

4:20 PM
Andy: I suppose I'm just going to have to download the emulator
Aaron: it's at the very bottom of the page.
with the game image.
Andy: yah.



4:30 PM
Andy: oh my god. I'm playing oregon trail.

4:35 PM
Andy: so simple it hurts!

crap. I just lost an ox.

haha! take that big blue river!

Dr. Martin Luther King, Jr.

I hope everyone has enjoyed their day off today.

Today, the third Monday of January, we have the day off to recognize the life and accomplishments of a man who, with many faults of his own, fought to reconcile the differences among his fellow man. Most remarkably, he fought this war peacefully.

Dr. Martin Luther King Jr. did not have ambitions to be a great leader as a young man, however his humanity could not be silenced, as its bold discourse led Dr. King to strive for what he felt were nonnegotiable realities: freedom, equality, and happiness. Dr. King is recognized for taking up the fight of civil rights not just to raise up the African American from the remnants of slavery and inequality, but to assure harmony and equality of all men and women, of every race, every nation, and every religion.

Dr. King was a warrior for peace and a champion of change. He sacrificed much, and gave nearly everything he had during his life, but he was a reluctant hero and leader. As future physicians, we have much to learn from the example he has set for before us. As mentioned before, Dr. King was not without fault and the record of this in the history is clear. However, recognizing his weaknesses, he continually strove to better himself, to be a better religious leader, a better husband, a better father, a better man; always in the face of his failures.

It was through his position in the community that Dr. King was able to exact the degree of change that he did. The fight for civil rights was that exactly, a fight, a war. Because of his leadership though, the goals of the civil rights movement were, ultimately, achieved peacefully.

Today we live in a world of unprecedented tolerance, freedom, and opportunity. Are things perfect today? I think we can all recognize that they are not. However, this recognition is the first step. The second step is to pursue change through leadership, if through direct action towards change, or in the form of leading by example. As future physicians and current students of medicine, we will and do hold a special degree of respect from society. It is our responsibility to use our position, appropriately, boldly, and courageouslyfor a better world for ourselves, and those who come after us.

With the good fortune of the entire day off, please take a few moments of reflection to recognize what we have, the sacrifices made before us, and the work yet to come.

Thank you,

-Aaron A. Davis



August 28, 1963
Washington D.C.
The Lincoln Memorial

Five score years ago, a great American, in whose symbolic shadow we stand signed the Emancipation Proclamation. This momentous decree came as a great beacon light of hope to millions of Negro slaves who had been seared in the flames of withering injustice. It came as a joyous daybreak to end the long night of captivity. But one hundred years later, we must face the tragic fact that the Negro is still not free.

One hundred years later, the life of the Negro is still sadly crippled by the manacles of segregation and the chains of discrimination. One hundred years later, the Negro lives on a lonely island of poverty in the midst of a vast ocean of material prosperity. One hundred years later, the Negro is still languishing in the corners of American society and finds himself an exile in his own land.

So we have come here today to dramatize an appalling condition. In a sense we have come to our nation's capital to cash a check. When the architects of our republic wrote the magnificent words of the Constitution and the Declaration of Independence, they were signing a promissory note to which every American was to fall heir.

This note was a promise that all men would be guaranteed the inalienable rights of life, liberty, and the pursuit of happiness. It is obvious today that America has defaulted on this promissory note insofar as her citizens of color are concerned. Instead of honoring this sacred obligation, America has given the Negro people a bad check which has come back marked "insufficient funds." But we refuse to believe that the bank of justice is bankrupt. We refuse to believe that there are insufficient funds in the great vaults of opportunity of this nation.

So we have come to cash this check -- a check that will give us upon demand the riches of freedom and the security of justice. We have also come to this hallowed spot to remind America of the fierce urgency of now. This is no time to engage in the luxury of cooling off or to take the tranquilizing drug of gradualism. Now is the time to rise from the dark and desolate valley of segregation to the sunlit path of racial justice. Now is the time to open the doors of opportunity to all of God's children. Now is the time to lift our nation from the quicksands of racial injustice to the solid rock of brotherhood.

It would be fatal for the nation to overlook the urgency of the moment and to underestimate the determination of the Negro. This sweltering summer of the Negro's legitimate discontent will not pass until there is an invigorating autumn of freedom and equality. Nineteen sixty-three is not an end, but a beginning. Those who hope that the Negro needed to blow off steam and will now be content will have a rude awakening if the nation returns to business as usual. There will be neither rest nor tranquility in America until the Negro is granted his citizenship rights.

The whirlwinds of revolt will continue to shake the foundations of our nation until the bright day of justice emerges. But there is something that I must say to my people who stand on the warm threshold which leads into the palace of justice. In the process of gaining our rightful place we must not be guilty of wrongful deeds. Let us not seek to satisfy our thirst for freedom by drinking from the cup of bitterness and hatred.

We must forever conduct our struggle on the high plane of dignity and discipline. we must not allow our creative protest to degenerate into physical violence. Again and again we must rise to the majestic heights of meeting physical force with soul force.

The marvelous new militancy which has engulfed the Negro community must not lead us to distrust of all white people, for many of our white brothers, as evidenced by their presence here today, have come to realize that their destiny is tied up with our destiny and their freedom is inextricably bound to our freedom.

We cannot walk alone. And as we walk, we must make the pledge that we shall march ahead. We cannot turn back. There are those who are asking the devotees of civil rights, "When will you be satisfied?" we can never be satisfied as long as our bodies, heavy with the fatigue of travel, cannot gain lodging in the motels of the highways and the hotels of the cities. We cannot be satisfied as long as the Negro's basic mobility is from a smaller ghetto to a larger one. We can never be satisfied as long as a Negro in Mississippi cannot vote and a Negro in New York believes he has nothing for which to vote. No, no, we are not satisfied, and we will not be satisfied until justice rolls down like waters and righteousness like a mighty stream.

I am not unmindful that some of you have come here out of great trials and tribulations. Some of you have come fresh from narrow cells. Some of you have come from areas where your quest for freedom left you battered by the storms of persecution and staggered by the winds of police brutality. You have been the veterans of creative suffering. Continue to work with the faith that unearned suffering is redemptive.

Go back to Mississippi, go back to Alabama, go back to Georgia, go back to Louisiana, go back to the slums and ghettos of our northern cities, knowing that somehow this situation can and will be changed. Let us not wallow in the valley of despair. I say to you today, my friends, that in spite of the difficulties and frustrations of the moment, I still have a dream. It is a dream deeply rooted in the American dream.

I have a dream that one day this nation will rise up and live out the true meaning of its creed: "We hold these truths to be self-evident: that all men are created equal." I have a dream that one day on the red hills of Georgia the sons of former slaves and the sons of former slaveowners will be able to sit down together at a table of brotherhood. I have a dream that one day even the state of Mississippi, a desert state, sweltering with the heat of injustice and oppression, will be transformed into an oasis of freedom and justice. I have a dream that my four children will one day live in a nation where they will not be judged by the color of their skin but by the content of their character. I have a dream today.

I have a dream that one day the state of Alabama, whose governor's lips are presently dripping with the words of interposition and nullification, will be transformed into a situation where little black boys and black girls will be able to join hands with little white boys and white girls and walk together as sisters and brothers. I have a dream today. I have a dream that one day every valley shall be exalted, every hill and mountain shall be made low, the rough places will be made plain, and the crooked places will be made straight, and the glory of the Lord shall be revealed, and all flesh shall see it together. This is our hope. This is the faith with which I return to the South. With this faith we will be able to hew out of the mountain of despair a stone of hope. With this faith we will be able to transform the jangling discords of our nation into a beautiful symphony of brotherhood. With this faith we will be able to work together, to pray together, to struggle together, to go to jail together, to stand up for freedom together, knowing that we will be free one day.

This will be the day when all of God's children will be able to sing with a new meaning, "My country, 'tis of thee, sweet land of liberty, of thee I sing. Land where my fathers died, land of the pilgrim's pride, from every mountainside, let freedom ring." And if America is to be a great nation, this must become true. So let freedom ring from the prodigious hilltops of New Hampshire. Let freedom ring from the mighty mountains of New York. Let freedom ring from the heightening Alleghenies of Pennsylvania! Let freedom ring from the snowcapped Rockies of Colorado! Let freedom ring from the curvaceous peaks of California! But not only that; let freedom ring from Stone Mountain of Georgia! Let freedom ring from Lookout Mountain of Tennessee! Let freedom ring from every hill and every molehill of Mississippi. From every mountainside, let freedom ring.

When we let freedom ring, when we let it ring from every village and every hamlet, from every state and every city, we will be able to speed up that day when all of God's children, black men and white men, Jews and Gentiles, Protestants and Catholics, will be able to join hands and sing in the words of the old Negro spiritual, "Free at last! free at last! thank God Almighty, we are free at last!"



Source: Martin Luther King, Jr: The Peaceful Warrior, Pocket Books, NY 1968

Monday, January 09, 2006

Burnout

I'm at a very severe and troubling time of my life. For once, I'm not depressed-although I may be and just not know it.

I'm frustrated at my life, my current state that is. I feel choked by my position, and would rather not be where I am-Kirksville, medical school-here. I don't know where/who I'd rather be. All I know is that I am suffering total and debilitating burnout, on a scale I should only experience after several years of practice.

It is shortly after the new year. I returned to Kirksville less than a week ago. Since that time I've spent maybe two to four hours in class, and would be suprised if I could offer much more than that this week. I am exacerbatingly broke, the school out of money to offer me. I am frustrated by the potential career of medicine, and feel suffocated by the prospect of further medical education.

I have nothing I am passionate about right now, and seek solace in fleeting activities: stop-gaps in the hours of coscienceness and not. I'm overweight, in constant pain, and suffer from an always-present sense of fatigue. I can never get enough sleep, and would attempt to sleep away my life it it could be held. It all sounds like depression, yet I am mentally acute, enjoy time with my friends, simple activities, reading, meditation, my animals, movies, all of it. I simply no longer wish to become a physician, no longer have the strength to help. I thought about the practice of medicine today and became immediately nauseous.

I believe I am simply sick of it all, and the mere thought of an attempt ant organization exhausts me.

The question now is, what to do? I will ride it out, as long as I can afford to, and see if my passion returns. But for now I can honestly say that if things don't change in the near future, I will leave this path for good.

Sunday, January 08, 2006

Call For Physical Clarification-Special Theory of Relativity

I've been spending too much time staring at Hubble images, and I am now having problems with some aspects of Einstein's Special Theory of Relativity, specifically:

1.) Light shouId be observed by ALL observers at the same speed,

2.) The speed of light is a CONSTANT: c.

If these components are both true, what happens near a black hole, where even photons cannot reach escape velocity? What happens to a photon at the edge of a black hole, and what would an observer (at the edge but NOT on the photon) see?

Sunday, January 01, 2006

Of Course, the New Years Post

"The great renewal of the world will perhaps consist in this, that man and maid, freed of all false feelings and reluctances, will seek each other not as opposites, but as brother and sister, as neighbors, and will come together as human beings."
-Rainer Maria Rilke

So we've had a chance to finish that one, and begin this other. The year is over, and my impressions of it are mixed, but clear.

Firstly, 2005 was a hard year. The pursuit of my medical education, and struggles with my personal demons was, as expected, a task for me. For my friends it was a time of change and burden, yet I think hardly a year goes by where this is not the case.

However, 2005 was an absolutely amazing year, and where to start? With the most important, of course.

Ivy McCord Simpson was born. Ivy is easily one of the most important things in my life, and I loved her the instant I saw her. And I love her parents for their unconditional loyalty, support, and friendship, and for bringing her into this world.

Travel. My body physically moved further than it ever has in my entire life. I spent nearly three days in the air, and I saw amazing places, not counting the thousands of miles driven. The experience in South Africa, goes without saying as a life-altering experience for the better. It was my first independent, real experience as a doctor, and my first time leaving North America. France was France, but most importantly, I got to meet my hero, Lance Armstrong. And I had tears in my eyes at the incredible beauty of the work in the Van Gogh museum in the Netherlands.

My friends. I've already mentioned Pat and Amy, but there are a load of people in my life who are so incredibly important to me. You know who you are, and I am humbled by you.

My professional development. I'm shocked by how much I've learned this year, and at the quality of my education at the Kirksville College of Osteopathic Medicine. I'm so incredibly greatful for this wonderful gift of osteopathy that I am learning. From being able to use my hands to make real changes in peoples lives, to growing as a caring and competent physician, I am so lucky to be learning what I am, and at who I get to become.

For everything else. Life is an incredible ride. It's short, it can be harsh, and it can be beautiful. It is the experience you make of it, and what it makes of you. I've never once asked 'what is the meaning of life?', and I doubt I ever will. It just is, and we just are. I think it's worth it.

I wish you all a truly happy new year, and congratulate you on the one now completed.